THIS Is How It Is.
24 Oct 2011 19:55![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
patentdragonI really, REALLY, do NOT know where to start. Or whether I should.
Yesterday got really horrendous just before lunch. There's a Task for my Mission 101 that reads 93 - Speak my mind with confidence more often. - sounds a lot easier than it is to actually execute. And it is, expecially when you live with someone who seems to have (in Ultima Online terms) Legendary skill in Takes-Everything-Personally. Express even a passing dissatisfaction with something in your own life, and the Takes-Everything-Personally assumes this is a scathing critique of them, or their efforts in that field, or something completely different. It makes you afraid to open your damned mouth sometimes, for fear of being the catalyst for a simmering rage or somesuch.
YES. It IS something to do with living where I am now (which I hope I got across on Sunday). I've been torn up by the roots and transplanted elsewhere - willingly, and for a certain someone else's benefit - but I am still to get "rerooted" where I am. Oddly enough, what I could really do with is to get away, ideally for at least a solid week. So far, no dice. It's like what's happening with my laptop - when it reboots, it just can't get beyond that stage. I need a complete reboot.
NO. It is not because of my nephew. Yes, he does make occasional demands on my free time, but at least he's pleased to see me, unlike much of the rest of the planet (or so it seems - a question actually asked, but not answered in as much detail). I am still "learning the ropes", and yes, he will be starting school some time in the next year - and I want to be there to make sure he doesn't get bullied. I know how that can be all too well. It will NOT happen again.
And, of course, it would help if he understood that adult genitals are not weight-supporting structures...
NO. The time I spend in the office after work does not even BEGIN to meet my requirements for "time of my own". I have roughly as much time (give or take the post midnight stints I can't seem to fit in these days) as I did at Number 99, but I used to have most of my weekends too. I'd like to have the opportunity to spend a morning, an afternoon, devoted to one single project, but I just DON'T get that any more, and don't get me started on daylight...
Today has been better. It doesn't help that an act of vandalism was revealed yesterday, and I'm disappointed that the replacement for the vandalised item which I bought today isn't entirely successful. Next time "that skill" is employed, I shall have to confront it, and ask "Why?" Maybe I'm not the only person struggling to express themselves.
Yesterday got really horrendous just before lunch. There's a Task for my Mission 101 that reads 93 - Speak my mind with confidence more often. - sounds a lot easier than it is to actually execute. And it is, expecially when you live with someone who seems to have (in Ultima Online terms) Legendary skill in Takes-Everything-Personally. Express even a passing dissatisfaction with something in your own life, and the Takes-Everything-Personally assumes this is a scathing critique of them, or their efforts in that field, or something completely different. It makes you afraid to open your damned mouth sometimes, for fear of being the catalyst for a simmering rage or somesuch.
YES. It IS something to do with living where I am now (which I hope I got across on Sunday). I've been torn up by the roots and transplanted elsewhere - willingly, and for a certain someone else's benefit - but I am still to get "rerooted" where I am. Oddly enough, what I could really do with is to get away, ideally for at least a solid week. So far, no dice. It's like what's happening with my laptop - when it reboots, it just can't get beyond that stage. I need a complete reboot.
NO. It is not because of my nephew. Yes, he does make occasional demands on my free time, but at least he's pleased to see me, unlike much of the rest of the planet (or so it seems - a question actually asked, but not answered in as much detail). I am still "learning the ropes", and yes, he will be starting school some time in the next year - and I want to be there to make sure he doesn't get bullied. I know how that can be all too well. It will NOT happen again.
And, of course, it would help if he understood that adult genitals are not weight-supporting structures...
NO. The time I spend in the office after work does not even BEGIN to meet my requirements for "time of my own". I have roughly as much time (give or take the post midnight stints I can't seem to fit in these days) as I did at Number 99, but I used to have most of my weekends too. I'd like to have the opportunity to spend a morning, an afternoon, devoted to one single project, but I just DON'T get that any more, and don't get me started on daylight...
Today has been better. It doesn't help that an act of vandalism was revealed yesterday, and I'm disappointed that the replacement for the vandalised item which I bought today isn't entirely successful. Next time "that skill" is employed, I shall have to confront it, and ask "Why?" Maybe I'm not the only person struggling to express themselves.
